Wallowing in my own self pity. I am getting poorer though. That is a huge motivator though. I truly cannot afford to drink. But do I anyway? Yeah, silly question. Thanks for hanging with me through all this. Anyone still out there? .

I had never heard of this medication before! Please do not get me wrong I am not saying this is a miracle treatment or the solution to everything. I just wanted to share this reading. What a paradox right? The story of my life! Well it s the mind of an addict! .

It is not such a big deal in my day to day now. So that is the value sober bad days. I feel like a new person. 8221; and he cracked open a beer.

I like this little countdown thingy. its exciting to watch the numbers go down. Ive been so busy lately. today the big kid has 10th grade orientation. and her boyfriend is coming to hang out afterwards. Im on the toilet, and the little kid is sitting here bugging me. as crazy and annoying as it is, Im going to miss this one day.

Out of Shadow and Ash, Spirit ascends and blazes Light. The drip, drip, drip of existence. When I left rehab I accepted your influence.

Compare that to my late late nights every night because I had to finish off that second bottle. I had maybe 5 hours of shitty sleep, waking up in between and being nauseous the next morning. Hallelujah and poor old body of mine, have I mistreated that beautiful temple.

Asymp; Leave a comment. I take the car out to get some more somewhere. But today I am feeling very strong and confident and after the first few horrible nights of withdrawal have passed . It is just like .

I am still not drinking.

Trying to navigate my way through this world. Something I will have to manage forever. Or, is it the 27th? Then, the unbearable tooth pain came, I think later that day or the next day.